I was one of those little goth girls in high school that got picked on all the time. Kids use to throw food at me in the cafeteria, say dogs couldn’t sit at the table and bark at me. I felt like Robert Smith understood what I was feeling. He knew what it was like to be an outsider, he understood all the emotions I kept bottled up inside.
I just couldn’t relate to all the top 40 music I was hearing on the radio back then. Then I found the Cure and other bands that were misfits just like me. I remember listening to Head on the Door for the first time, Robert Smith singing “In Between Days”, and I was like I get that, I understand it. There was finally something I could relate to. From that moment I was in love with them.
Now I listen to those songs and they make some of the bad memories easier to think about. Like when I hear “Catch”, and it opens up with “Yeah I know who you remind me of, a girl I think I used to know”, It makes me think about how far I’ve come from being that misfit girl.
I’d say to people that feel like they don’t fit in, whether you’re 15 or 50, go back and listen to some of those songs from ’80’s alternative bands. You’ll realize that your not alone. A lot of people have gone through the same type of things you’re going though, and it won’t last forever. Just take it one song at a time, and understand that so many of those people, that are just like you, have come out the other side and done great things with their lives.
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